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one of my friends has gotten into smoking

im making chainmail

lcke wrote:im making chainmail

is it that one with the bottlecaps you were talking about?

purn wrote:one of my friends has gotten into smoking

hes from a low-status family so its concerning

not sure why he started either its likely not to 'look cool' and i dont think he has much stressing him out

purn wrote:one of my friends has gotten into smoking

Tobacco or cannabis?

Magi wrote:

purn wrote:one of my friends has gotten into smoking

Tobacco or cannabis?

cigs

How many does he smoke a day?

hes actually invited me to 420blazeitfaggot with him before but i dont think hes seriously into that

Magi wrote:How many does he smoke a day?

no clue

purn wrote:

lcke wrote:im making chainmail

is it that one with the bottlecaps you were talking about?

no just regular chain links

purn wrote:

Magi wrote:How many does he smoke a day?

no clue

Well it's a very expensive habit once you actually get into it.
I spend about €70 - $96 a week on the fucking things.

Magi wrote:

purn wrote:

Magi wrote:How many does he smoke a day?

no clue

Well it's a very expensive habit once you actually get into it.
I spend about €70 - $96 a week on the fucking things.

yea thats why its concerning

people smoke pot everywhere here BC is legendary for all the fuckin marijuana sometimes i'll be walking down the street and i'll get hit with a full blast of that smell it makes even though nobody is around

hes physically huge though so wouldnt that mean he needs to smoke more than somoeone with an 'average' build

purn wrote:hes physically huge though so wouldnt that mean he needs to smoke more than somoeone with an 'average' build

it fucks you up either way

i'm still lonely

mega!!!! wrote:i'm still lonely

why

purn wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:i'm still lonely

why

i can't bring myself to talk about why

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:i'm still lonely

why

i can't bring myself to talk about why

s'alright

purn wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:
why

i can't bring myself to talk about why

s'alright

it's kinda like...i want someone really bad, alright? but, unlike most fly niggas, i never gained interest in average people like most have. lack of attraction is there too, i dunno how. but then i get home i relax and explore glorious works of *fiction*and often have tendencies to fall in love with women within them. if i reaaaaaaally like them i go into a borderline hikky-esque phase and start smooth talking to someone that isn't even there. i really get into it, the shit's delusional. mind you, this has followed me for the past four years and it would really show. i do have recurring thoughts every once in a while around the lines of "stop lying to yourself. she isn't there." and so forth that drive me to a mental breakdown. it's a shame because unlike most people who deal with this, i will gladly go outside and live my life like normal. the current issue is the recurring thoughts pop up in my day to day life, and i fear that this will eventually spawn new issues in the future. i am on zoloft as medication, and that manages to have sexual-related side effects. but it's more related towards females and those for men are nothing around the lines of my situation. i just don't know what's my problem and i'm fearing what this will set up for the future. there's more to this fucking nonsense, but i think this is enough.

i'll never live this shit down will i

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:

i can't bring myself to talk about why

s'alright

wall

i'll never live this shit down will i

you can live it down if you want to allow yourself to

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:
why

i can't bring myself to talk about why

s'alright

it's kinda like...i want someone really bad, alright? but, unlike most fly niggas, i never gained interest in average people like most have. lack of attraction is there too, i dunno how. but then i get home i relax and explore glorious works of *fiction*and often have tendencies to fall in love with women within them. if i reaaaaaaally like them i go into a borderline hikky-esque phase and start smooth talking to someone that isn't even there. i really get into it, the shit's delusional. mind you, this has followed me for the past four years and it would really show. i do have recurring thoughts every once in a while around the lines of "stop lying to yourself. she isn't there." and so forth that drive me to a mental breakdown. it's a shame because unlike most people who deal with this, i will gladly go outside and live my life like normal. the current issue is the recurring thoughts pop up in my day to day life, and i fear that this will eventually spawn new issues in the future. i am on zoloft as medication, and that manages to have sexual-related side effects. but it's more related towards females and those for men are nothing around the lines of my situation. i just don't know what's my problem and i'm fearing what this will set up for the future. there's more to this fucking nonsense, but i think this is enough.

i'll never live this shit down will i

nah it's fine

you obviously have a problem but i gotta feeling you'll eventually get over it if it isn't actually a serious mental issue. do you actually feel that you need the medicine and there isn't a better way to improve it what's happening, and are you able to figure out the root of what's troubling you?

mrspurinization wrote:

mega!!!! wrote:

purn wrote:
s'alright

it's kinda like...i want someone really bad, alright? but, unlike most fly niggas, i never gained interest in average people like most have. lack of attraction is there too, i dunno how. but then i get home i relax and explore glorious works of *fiction*and often have tendencies to fall in love with women within them. if i reaaaaaaally like them i go into a borderline hikky-esque phase and start smooth talking to someone that isn't even there. i really get into it, the shit's delusional. mind you, this has followed me for the past four years and it would really show. i do have recurring thoughts every once in a while around the lines of "stop lying to yourself. she isn't there." and so forth that drive me to a mental breakdown. it's a shame because unlike most people who deal with this, i will gladly go outside and live my life like normal. the current issue is the recurring thoughts pop up in my day to day life, and i fear that this will eventually spawn new issues in the future. i am on zoloft as medication, and that manages to have sexual-related side effects. but it's more related towards females and those for men are nothing around the lines of my situation. i just don't know what's my problem and i'm fearing what this will set up for the future. there's more to this fucking nonsense, but i think this is enough.

i'll never live this shit down will i

nah it's fine

you obviously have a problem but i gotta feeling you'll eventually get over it if it isn't actually a serious mental issue. do you actually feel that you need the medicine and there isn't a better way to improve it what's happening, and are you able to figure out the root of what's causing your troubles?

this


also it's not really such a bad quality to have, i think you're just anticipating having a real person to be there

that or i have no idea what im talking about

i see where you're getting at, but define what you mean by "real person"

mega!!!! wrote:i see where you're getting at, but define what you mean by "real person"

maybe someday you will have a significant other in your life that you can hang out with, and you doing this now is just natural anticipation for that

its nothing to be particularly ashamed of, its just a different way of expressing yourself. as long as it feels right then it is right

you know, those "she isn't real" thoughts might actually be the best thing for you. they're a major cognitive dissidence which is why you naturally react badly to them but eliminating the obsessions you have with the characters would tear the issue out of the ground (or at least cut it to its stump)

and, everybody gets horrible recurring thoughts that always pop up no matter how much they upset you, the trick is to just let them flow and understand your own intentions

you may want to look into zen buddhism, i'm certain it would be much better for your mental health than just popping pills the doc wrote you up on