hey

master caster wrote:

spinnythings wrote:

master caster wrote:I'm saying you don't care about us as people, just as an emotional tampon for you to unload your feels on.

Also you let us know about how you don't give a fuck about us pretty far after the freak out.

how does that even make sense? to what end would i be working toward? i have emotional conflicts about people, and to rid myself of them i vent to other people and dispose of them when im finished like, as you put it, a bloody tampon? what would that accomplish? why would i engage with anybody?

Can you fucking read? Are you even fucking able to read your own shit-posts? Because you FUCKING SAID THAT SHIT. I'm just paraphrasing something you already graciously explained to us, though probably unintentionally.

Let me run it down for you. You have an "emotional conflict" about people or some shit. Like some EVE player is making you feel le feelios. You run over to otthunderdome.com and tell Magician to fuck off and kill himself and then whine and cry and talk shit about the EVE player none of us but you care about. You bitch at some users, and then eventually talk it over with some other people who naively consider you a friend and then log off. You feel refreshed and go back to EVE to pretend you're a space man instead of doing your fucking math homework after blowing off everyone else's posts on OTTHUNDERDOME.COM. That's what I see coming from you.

DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME NOW?

spinnythings wrote:

spinnythings wrote:

master caster wrote:I'm saying you don't care about us as people, just as an emotional tampon for you to unload your feels on.

Also you let us know about how you don't give a fuck about us pretty far after the freak out.

how does that even make sense? to what end would i be working toward? i have emotional conflicts about people, and to rid myself of them i vent to other people and dispose of them when im finished like, as you put it, a bloody tampon? what would that accomplish? why would i engage with anybody?

and to further this, why would i get angry at you then cut off contact right after, as opposed to simply completely cutting off contact without a word and never returning, if i didn't care about you at all?

spinnythings wrote:I keep trying to tell you, I do care about you, and everyone else here. I've known you guys for years. I come to you for support.

I'm a terribly confused and ridiculous person and frequently contradict myself as I think about things more and gather new information. If i didn't think about my actions i would hardly be human.

I apologized dogman-style inappropriately in the original OP and gave the wrong impression about my intentions, as he did repeatedly, and as i had hoped to avoid.

master caster wrote:

spinnythings wrote:I keep trying to tell you, I do care about you, and everyone else here. I've known you guys for years. I come to you for support.

I'm a terribly confused and ridiculous person and frequently contradict myself as I think about things more and gather new information. If i didn't think about my actions i would hardly be human.

I apologized dogman-style inappropriately in the original OP and gave the wrong impression about my intentions, as he did repeatedly, and as i had hoped to avoid.

I know you come to us for support and I appreciate your trust but you give nothing back. You come here, get support and leave without thanks. You take us completely for granted and then when a couple posts get ignored? We should all kill ourselves and you never liked any of us. It's unbelievable and being nice to you is honestly a waste of effort

Red Epoch wrote:yeah but youre in no place to be insulting people when youre a huge fag

Red Epoch wrote:yeah but youre in no place to be insulting people when youre a huge fag

spinnythings wrote:Yeah. I'm really bad about thanking people. And that isn't a good thing. I have to remind myself to say thanks so as not to offend anybody or make anybody think I'm intentionally being rude. I didn't know you wanted to be thanked. And you deserve a thank you. Everyone here does.

I would like to thank everybody in this community for everything they've done for me over the past few years, even FD and RTC.

You guys have helped me through many struggles I've had and through your support, have helped me open my mind to new ways of thinking I cannot believe I would be able to get in any other community. This place is unique, it has built its own culture out of nothing and just by being involved with you all, I feel like a radically different person than I was just a few years ago, which is hard for some people to even think about.

The critics especially, I might have trouble embracing at times but I never throw away criticism, I think about it and pour over it to try and better myself with it in any way I can. Thank you, those of you who listened to me when I was complaining about the stupidest stuff, and thank you for helping me through all the ridiculous shit I get myself into.

I don't even have the words to describe how much your wisdom means to me. Without you, I'd be empty.

Thank you all, and I hope you can come to forgive my ridiculous transgressions.